I've had a very interesting dream: I'm away from my family because of work. I'm working on some large project and many people report to me. Someone reaches out to me on behalf of a person who requested my attention earlier and I realize I'd forgotten all about it. I go there immediately, feeling like... Continue Reading →
[...] my mother's disappointment in me was based on unreal, imagined problems in my behavior; specters. And as I was subconsciously chasing an honest approval from my mother, my mind obliged and created specters for me to defeat. To make her proud.
I don’t know when I really started liking to wear clothes, but I remember that I was partly drawn to it by the sheer excitement of exploring the world without exposing my entire body to its elements. While that is part of the truth, the other side which dragged me back (and another reason I refused to turn... Continue Reading →
The most difficult step for some might be that first time of simply being naked for seemingly no reason. I can relate to the feeling of being watched, laughed at, sneered at, from every tiniest crack in the window blinds, through the keyhole of the locked door, from the closed closet - and if you're doing it in a pitch black room, lying on your bed (covered or not) naked, from the side, or under your bed, or looming above you a figure staring critically at the shape of your body beneath the sheets just waiting to get you should a patch of skin show; and even though it's completely dark you think that they can see you.
"Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering."
I don't know when I really started liking to be naked, but I remember that I was partly drawn to it by the sheer excitement of exploring the world by exposing my entire body to its elements. While that is part of the truth, the other side which dragged me back (and another reason I refused to... Continue Reading →